Venting excuse the poor grammar, spelling and lack of topic focus.

The less I pay attention to anything the less I am bound to notice. I think that's fairly accurate for just about anyone. The more time you dedicate to something or someone the more details you are aware of. So, spending time on particular websites is no different. I've chosen to avoid this site for a while, because I've seen the effects that it's been having on me; most of which, do me little benefit. 

Anyway, being as a relationship was started on this site, and it been impacted upon by said site as well as enhanced it... well, I've suggested that my partner and myself avoid the site for some time; use other venues for communication, as it is obvious, this is a long distance relationship. It's bothered and affected us so much, that I came to such a conclusion, and offered that as a different approach to solving the issues that I seem to have been making a larger deal, than they really have ever been. 

Needless to say... all I wish is for us both to avoid it for some time... not me display some sort of control over what she does or does not do. Either way... she is free to do what she wants.  She agreed... ::sighs:: And that lasted for about a day... and today she signed into it to wish people happy holidays and what not. I guess I am so demanding that this bothering me is just out of line. Just merely have us stay clear away from there and her opting to clearly go there anyway, is in a way, her showing her understanding of how I've been feeling about the site and how it has been affecting us. 

So, after agreeing to something that is clear, to then renege on it because you so wish, I guess, a great way to show your dependability and worth of word. It hurt, is bothered me greatly, and as I expressed this, I was told I look at things differently than she does. So this, I am made to feel, is fine and I simply should accept it. Not wanting to spark another argument i simply nod, smile and say it isn't a problem. Because her going there is her freedom. Rightfully so, that is not a problem at all. I've obviously asked for far too many things from her and this was just too much. This is just another one of my bitch sessions. Except, I'll vent here... and  that's it. The chance of this being found and discussed is slim. Heh... As if it matters. Christ I am such an emo right now. 

Merry Christmas... Hope All Enjoy and get what you've asked for. 

Santa has a sense of humor. most times. 

Poetry 5

Crows


The black angels of this world, I doubt thou knew
the Murder's daily flights are far from few.
Around the cemetery treads and tread do you,
without visions of the black angels far from view.
Perching and gliding, flying and perching spies on you
carefully walk your path on the day you now rue.

O! The Murder! The Murder! Who could? Who knew
about the Murder, the Murder that looms about you?
The steady pace... Haste! Haste quickly! And haste to!
the edge of the cemetery, where no one else knew.
Be careful the grave beds or one will own you
because you thought not even the Murder knew.

They fly, they perch. They circle and glide above you
while yours beats beats faster the drink of Crimson hue.
Be still thy HEART! Be still thy HAND! Tis no reason to choose
the fear O! Fear of the Murder that is the essence of you!
But why you? Can't the Murder another unhappy soul choose?
No! Thou hath caught its eye, too late, is too.

Walking, had walked this path you to
hide, endark, yourself seclude.
Hid yourself here to writhe thy hand in blood, so soon
to rid pain of your life, and rejoice it to the Moon.
Thy Evil intent, thy Evil do, can't go without taken Due,
a Due, you wish the Murder had not been to.

But the Murder was. The Murder is. The Murder will, too
bloody be to so, so, so easily be quietly subdued.

Anony--FUS ROH DAH!!!!

If one Cancer patient was instantly healed per every asinine, band-wagon-ing, bastritch, Annonymous-is-now-a-FAD, type post on the net... The new leading cause of death would be an Arrow to the Knee.

~~~FFSgetaclue!